"I Believe. Someday I will love, someone who's by my side. " - Over time Soundtrack. My favourite song and I just watch a 5 min excerpt of the show ending on Youtube. I still remember the names of the roles they played though it has been a gd 10 yrs since I watched it.

The song that consoles me each time after a breakup or a disappointment haa. It is my wish but is not coming true. When I finally fall in love, I become more lonely. Different relationships are conducted differently. Have I not felt the warmth n showering of love n the presence of partner in my previous relationships, I probably wouldnt feel what I am feeling now. Sometimes, I just feel that no one is there for me when I needed that someone. I used to feel so alone and always gota listen to this song when I first fell in love a decade ago. But he let me down though he promised that he wont. N he let me down, yr after yr. N the same thing happens now... but I attribute it to the nature of the job my partner is doing or the lifestyle he is having.

So do I continue loving and living that kinda life when I gota keep listening to 'Believe' to console myself? Or I live a life with someone that will never make me feel that I need to listen to this song? But I may not really love him as much? The latter = the ending in Over Time.

And regarding things I wish he did that he never... I guess no reason is ever a reason good enough. If a person really wants something or wants somebody, no reason will stop him. I will throw the control out of my hands. And I will stop attempting to shape my destiny with him. Yes, attempt. Cuz all along I always felt that destiny is in my own hands but .. now.. Let it be :)

This weekend I will go look for the Over Time full soundtrack. I quite need it once in a while.