Conflicted feelings overwhelming my mind and body.
I guess focal point of a problem always changes with new things and experiences coming into life. Sth that seem to bother me for a yr suddenly got overshadowed by a newer problem. I feel guilty for becoming others' problems before too.
Some feelings and reactions are unexplained thats why they cause mind conflicts. I guess I must not make the same mistake again by forsaking the present that I have. As for the past, I must learn how to deal with it or rather how to look at it from a different perspective. Let time teach me how to do it. Let love teach me how to do it. Emotional baggage was never gone I realised, it was only hidden within me. Now, I have to face it I am at a loss. I need to let it be gone.
Why am I always indecisive and hesitant, yet making selfish and stubborn choices in paths. And then create one whole web of problems for myself. Sometimes, I feel that Im just asking for it.
Face it, I have to face it. Learn things I have to learn things. Grow up, I have to grow up. Grow out of dwelling on things, I have to grow out of it.
