It is another sunday.. Having a few weeks' break before I continue my sunday dance classes.. It is an exceptionally quiet sunday even at home. Rare break I take nowadays. I saw my first bf's newborn baby's fotos. So cute :) Im quite happy for him, I hope he will really become a mature guy now. As I browse thru his fotos, looking at his face.. there is a sense of familiarity amidst the distant feelings. I thought of the last few smses he sent me this yr after he got married. That really concerned tone and I-really-hope-you-are-doing-good is still one of the few very genuine msgs I get from him these two yrs. Yeah, so life goes on.. people come and go.. only good memories stay behind after people let go. Which only brings a smile back onto the face when we think abt the other person.

I think I really feel a change in my phase and mentality over these past 2 yrs plus. From a person that just wants to party, have fun with frens, lotsa booze, doing things I love.. to a person that is looking for love and stability... to finally a person that wishes to settle down and do everything, go everywhere, share every part of my life with just a special person. All my ml frens say that it s the largest joke of the day if val wants to settle down or even if val gets attached. I must have been a real party ger in e past so they do not see the other side of me lol.

Im also a little surprised at my change. Is the change due to external influence or is it becoz of pple I meet in my life or is it becoz I just think that it is 'time'? I guess the transition point was probably last yr? I dont know why I keep feeling that there is lack of time for everything.. and hope to hasten everything.. unfortunately this is not the time to hasten things. There s too much change at the moment in all aspects of life now.. maybe I should not pin so much hopes and just enjoy.. I guess I am still in e process of seeking the balance.. while new things come into life to upset other balances.