Stormy and gloomy skies these days. And weirdly I start to miss the longest rs I had in my life. Suddenly recall the times he called me during the first few days I started sch at nus.. the time he repaired my hard drive.. the times he picked me up from my hse every wk for yrs with that "hello xxxx" greeting. n that nick still somehow feels close to heart. He really has worked hard in getting everything in a rs right. If only I loved him and not only liked him. We would have walked a long way or even down the aisle. I hope he is happily married now. I wish we can still be friends but he refused to. Sometimes I wonder.. Singapore is so small.. why didnt I ever bump into him before? as well as those guys that loved me before.
I still cant find the balance I have been trying to find. N I am feeling lost in the process. 为什麽 越相信谁能依靠 越换来 又一次灵魂寂寥? 其实我一个人很好, 眼泪可以自己擦掉.. why must I find a shoulder? why do I need a person? If moving onto a boat into a stormy sea can give me excitement, happiness that's momentary with the risk of weeping more painful tears, maybe I should not have moved in and stayed by myself on the shore.
