I realised sth. Sometimes the more pple ard me give me support and show me presence, the more I become reliant on them. When I am without anyone, I feel better being independent and I never felt reliant on anyone. Growing reliance is scary. How can I stop reliance from growing? I dont like the feeling of yi1 lai4 :( It makes one desires more and just generally makes one feel worse. Soo just gota rid it. How did I have that balance many yrs ago? SIGH.
I took my inspirational line off. Just for one simple reason - it isnt complete anymore. And I replaced it with "Insecurity is the basic tool of the actor's trade". Life is like a masquerade and we are all Actors. Only behind the stage we find ourselves yet it is on the stage we find our glory and pride.
