Spoke to one of my ex suitors just few days ago. He got back with his ex gf and I congratulate him in finding his love. But I got disappointed when he told me the reason is he gave up in love and he is ready to get married and want to get married. So to him a person that roughly shares the same outlook as him in life is fine. Maybe eventually most couples are like that?

I think in these few yrs I will see people I know moving around different people's lives like jigsaw pieces and then fitting together for various kinda reasons. N that's how knots are tied. I was just naive in the past. Everytime I see people getting married, I have this overwhelming feeling of happiness and I will be extremely touched. Because I used to think there is only one reason for marriage. But obviously reality is not the case.

And it is so common that after a girl has bid goodbye to someone in her life and afterwards realise that that person is who she wants. I just saw it ard me and in the dramas Ive been watching recently. The girl may walk away with some other guy, may get married etc.. but yrs later the girl can realise that after all, who she wants to be with is that guy she hurt before yrs ago. As for e guy, he usually would have moved on and will not accept the girl when she comes back into his life again. So sad. It is so ironic when it appears that it is the girl that has moved on with new pple yet she is the one that walks one whole round back to the guy that she once hurt. As for the guy, he was in the circle and as the ger walks away, he may initially appear to be the one that has not moved on..but in a short period of time, he has walked away with no more desire to be with the ger. N he may be already decided to be with someone else by then. Such a heartache. I experienced it before so I know :) It is so painful. But I did not let the guy know that I actually like him after those 2 yrs passed. It was also the first time I felt how it is like to be secretly in love with somebody and I cant do anything, cant say anything.

I was just watching a documentary abt the Land of Mosuo. It is one of the last matriarchal societies. Sex is practised freely. People get together lived together and can part anytime. Even when they have a kid. And men are treated as a procreation tool. Quite an interesting culture. But they interview this woman that was walked out by a guy..she was very upset but she accepted it as a matter of fact even though the woman knows that he left her for another woman. Hmm I wonder if it is a difficult place for women or men though women are supposed to rule.