In the hk show i watched, they say a guy will give a girl 4 rings in her whole life. It represents the 4 phases - courtship, proposal, engagement, marriage. So sweet. Just watched the 17th episode it is so sad and I cant find 18th episode on youtube.

Very tiring these days. Work has piled up. Energy is drained. Im losing sleep this week agn. Frm the start of the wk till nw. I cant wait for the long weekend at least there is sth to look forward to. Ydae was another day of workin late. It felt so lonely working late alone. I dont mind working late but I hate working and eating late alone. Luckily I run into my ex colleague and he brought me to the sentosa facing front of Vivo to just accompany me. That place used to be empty and quite a shack. I used to have nice memories there. But the whole building and everything is gone.

Having no partner isnt such a bad thing. I will have so much more time to myself and people I want to be with. N also more time to my passions. It is probably hard for my character to be with somebody? Always don't feel that I needed anyone. After so many yrs I still feel the same. I spoke to a gerfren and asked her if she feels this way too. Coz she's a pretty strong and independent person also with lotsa own burdens. Then she said no and that she actually needs somebody all along just that she cant find. Then I ask myself again do I really not need anyone? Maybe I just havent found the person I cannot live without. I only found people that I can live with. But come on.. I gota be practical right? That is unless I fall in love again. Can I? Do I? Have I? Will I?