听说 - 刘若英

听说你身边有新面孔 听说你不再寂寞 听说你提起我
我过得不错 忙碌中还有感动 尝试爱过几个人 面对爱也诚实许多
只能被听说安排着 关于你我的对的或错的 两个人曾经相似的 却以为都变了
只能靠听说各自爱着 不需要证明当时决定是错的
想着聊络 不如心底远远问候 最美丽
莫过于听说你还回忆 其实我也感激 当我听说你还相信爱情
听说我巷口你常经过 听说你厌倦寂寞
听说你问候我 听说我身边有新面孔 听说你祝福我

nice lyrics =)

Life has been quite an irony this past month.. When certain fates are intertwined, you just can never run away from them. Was listening to A Mei's 如果你也听说.. I find myself relating to this verse.. "突然发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走 还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞".. Love her mtv..It reminds me of myself. I have been roaming the streets of life.. Sometimes I enjoy it, sometimes I don't. A lot of laughter as well as a lot of tears including those that were shed alone. It's not that I don't wish to settle down.. But I have not found the reason to.

I think the last time when I smiled from my heart is when I was 17. A phone call that made me smile so widely that I am unable to even fake a normal smile-less face for at like half an hr. I remembered I have so much difficulty trying to unstretch my lips haha. I didnt know that there can be so intense happiness that one can actually have problem stopping the smile. Other times when I smile like that..hmm probably during my 21st bdae coz of frens.. Den over the past few yrs.. I keep receiving smses from a few pple like "Smile fang.." "Smile ger.." "Dont forget to smile.." "Smile, ur smile is the most captivating." "Smile today ok?" "Keep smiling." "I miss your smile." And my response to them is always a smile with a frown. It was until a friend told me my eyes have not smiled for yrs then I realise it has been really a while since I did smile.

Ya I guess thats why Im blogging now too.. I usually blog only when I feel down or when there are things I am thinking abt. I just got a call while blogging.. My fren is visiting a p sch fren that she hasnt really seen since p sch.. n the reason is coz he's got leukaemia and he already has not much time left. He's only 24 and trying desperately to buy time. It's so sad.. Life is so vulnerable and short. Sometimes we just take things and people for granted. A lot of things to cherish with that little time we have.

Another saturday at home has passed..spent thinking, reflecting and slacking. =)