I miss my bud =S I finally talk to him on msn after so many mths. It was jus plain gd companionship back in uni when both of us were single.. we jus go out go out go out n have our own time n throw each other away when we feel like. He's so right in this description. He asked mi a qn: how wud it have been if we continued with our companionship? I told him we will still get attached to someone else somehow.. get busy n mia for a while.. den we will get back to catch up anitime.. sounds gd sounds cool? He sae this is a 'symbiotic rs'. yeah.

Even though it has been mths since we talked.. I will jus be still as concerned abt his sch, his babe, his family.. n vice versa.. n we talked like we jus did ydae. How mani such frenships can I get? I feel like gg back to that kinda life.. sitting in restaurants, in cafes n talk whole dae. Mabe coz Im feeling down. It was during my hollow n down stage back then that I spent most of my time with him den.. Maybe it's time again? But he's flyin next wk.. Too bad he cant drink alcohol coz of religion else it will be just perfect. N he cant explain to his ger for meeting up with mi so we can onli meet at certain times =S

I dunno who to talk to.. n I just packed my weekends like mad again. Mabe I realli just cant...just cant be in a rs. Probably even the most trustworthy person also must hurt you once. I am just numb to all these after so loong? Why din I choose to stay in that happy period for some time longer..? Ya mabe I would miss out sth I might regret..but everiting tt starts will just add stress? aiya... I dunno wat Im talking abt. I feel quite emotionless now actually.

Why have I been seeing shadows of a one person in another? Am I missing out on sth?