I feel so stupid reading my previous post. A little foolish to cherish and remember all these things when the other party has long moved on. Yah.. feeling a bit unomfy c-ing him and his new ger. Not the feeling of jealousy, neither is it sadness. Just weird. Weird. More of hating myself for being so foolish. Perhaps.. it's normal to feel like that.. I duno.. esp for girls bah. When you c tt person u once have with another new person.. imagining tt person taking up e place.. etc etc.. Ok can someone just delete the dates, the numbers and everiting tt is to do with him in my mind? No one else remembers it now, come on. A first love that doesnt mean a thing now.

Ok.. Writing abt it makes me feel ok already. I so feel like deleting him from my contact list, from my frenster etc etc. Want him to get out. I so feel like having a beer now. Ok yeah Im fine and Im missing someone else today. I dunno wats with us, wat he is thinking and wat he is doing. And worst of all, I dunno wats with me. Im doing everything I can to destroy my image and to turn him off I seriously dunno why Im doing all these and why Im so nasty. *faints* Initially Im back to normal self but over the past wk im the nasty me again.

But well.. mabe coz of sth tt happened tt affected mi. I duno how to bring it up but I do feel uncomfortable. Oh well. Damn it. I shall just concentrate on my books this weekend.

And ya.. Im praying for luck for whatever Im facing prolly the next week onwards.