Nearly another year since I last blogged again. Have been at bachelors' gatherings these few daes? or rather 2 nights in a row. Is that what becomes of a single lady who is supposedli eligible but harbours too high expectations while having that masculine character in her? Yah, everione is calling me bro nowadaes until nearly no one is seeing mi like a ger! haha.. but nonetheless, those were fun nites. I love hanging out with my crazy bachelor frens.
Ydae one of my gd frens at the gathering was sharing with us his marriage proposal that was a huge 12-day 'project' ended with a very romantic and pretty finale on the twelth dae of christmas. Omg, it's so sweeet and romantic. Phenomenal. Lucky ger and of coz lucky him to find 'the one' in his life. Very touched by e whole thing and very happy for them. It's been so long since I hear happy rs stories man. (minus the fact that ydae was oso a dae where my fren is confiding to us abt his rs failure)
Suddenli everyone ard me starts to get married or is sharing marriage plans. Just reminds me that im approaching mid twenties. Damn it. When I though I just graduated.. Oh well. Time passes so fast all the time, and I realised Ive already broken up for 1.5 yrs. It definitely did not feel like 1.5 yrs. I think work has got the better of me.
It's been half a yr or more since I stepped into this new phase of my life. Lotsa things happened.. from job to love life. In terms of job.. it's too eventful to talk abt..I can only say the best thing I take away from my this first job and firm is the frenships n rs I built esp with my MA frens. They are reali the best bunch the best mix of people I ever will see and meet. I reali cherish the bond. I dunno whether we will still be together one yr from now.. esp when I already see all of us drifting apart recently. Im sure I will miss them some dae down the road when we all brk up. At one pt in time at our 'low' in our career when some mega bad ting happened, I just teared at the thought of us splitting up and leaving each other. I think probably we have grown to be quite dependent on each other's support thru all the bad times in our career. I see a parallel between my this grp of frens vs the first batch of cao ji xing guang da dao's candidates. All so innocent, pure and mabe even naive pple holding hands stepping into this complicated dark world of politics. There was no compeition and we only know what is called support. A collective daredevil attitude towards everithing. Really makes me cry and laugh at all the things we do.
Love life.. oh well. Complicated as usual. People come in and out in my life. While I slowly cleanse my heart and mind, preparing myself to embrace the next relationship. I think after this 1.5 yrs.. Im almost cleansed bah. Nearly nearly. Have been rejecting dates recently, putting heart and soul into my work. Unfortunately, work is not rewarding and dates are equally tiring so I end up feeling kinda sucky.
I feel quite lost at this point in time. Esp career wise.. what do I really want and what do I really like. There is always this compromise between practical wants and our unrealistic desires. Till now, I still dun have the ability to strike a good balance. At the same time, time is passing by so soon, I dun wish to waste my life doing things that are not value adding. But.. life is life.. it has to go on.. and we all have the practical needs to fulfil.
Continue another time.. Im going out now.. !
