Just caught the last episode of One Litre of Tears (also known as A Diary with Tears). Find it very touching. Its a real life story of this 15 yr old girl who had an incurable disease Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease. The whole show was about her struggle, her fight against the disease as her motor system degenerates, from losing the ability to estimate distances to eventually not being even able to walk, to speak and to write properly. Like what she wrote in her diary "The body doesnt seem to belong to me". And she wrote her deepest thoughts in a diary until the last day she could hold a pen. Eventually she passed away at 25 years old. This story took place 29 yrs ago from that girl's death (also named Aya as in the show). And her diary and writings that were published till now have given hopes to many who have the same disease and people who are in despair. Very heartwarming show, especially after every episode when they show the photos of that girl in real life through her different phases. I think the worst part of having the disease is really the discriminating eyes of people, it just makes them feel useless and worthless but not many know that they are as normal as any of us in terms of intelligence and mental well being. But well, a very meaningful show that will make people cry and make people happy knowing that they are so fortunate to be alive.

The question of why disease and death strikes just the people they strike keeps appearing at different parts of the show. And eventually, it ended saying that unfortunately there is no answer to that. There are just certain things that are destined and out of our control. If an accident just did happen to someone causing him to die, nothing can change the fact. At many times in the show, the girl also wished there was a time machine so that she could turn back time, but after a while realise that that is of no use coz its a helpless and unfulfilable wish. Thus, she started her diary thing and publishing those articles that actuali helped inspire some people, including even stopping a person from committing suicide coz of that disease. I wonder if I will be as brave and noble as her in her circumstance.

Anyway, it's a new year! Shall look at the new year with some hopes and optimism while I let the past be really part of the past =) Going forward, really hope to embrace a 'new form of life'.