These few days have been quite a disappointment. In certain people that I know, after seeing and hearing what they do and say. Oh well, but they probably do not know that I feel that. In a way, I felt a bit deceived yet on the other hand I feel that things have probably always just what they have been. Perhaps I just din realise. Perhaps I am just too naive. Perhaps I still think reality exists. My false perception of reality. During moments of impulse, I feel like confronting and ask them certain things, other times I feel like scolding them. But everytime such impulse arises in me, I withdraw from everything. Turn and walk away. No point hearing some things straight from the horse's mouth to get myself hurt. Naively, I brushed things off since it might not be the truth. But come on, why should I expose myself to more chances to get hurt? "time and actions will prove it all." and yes it did. Unfortunately, it has proven the opposite.

I really just find it a bit hard to accept the fact that actions are not in sync with words and implied meanings. Maybe coz Im a victim of the fact and not a third party. Thinking about it makes me feel distracted and I dislike it. I dunno who to turn to to complain. Smile it off laugh it off is what I did in the end. And this really SUX. Why must I hear things on a weekly frequency that makes me upset? I shall not bother anymore, no I try not to bother anymore.