Slacked the whole dae, lotsa chatting n surfing with minimal studying. The anticipation in my heart coupled with the bits of stress n bits of unhappiness results in a feeling which I do not know if I should call that missing somebody or is that just a feeling of longing for something. Hmm, those sepia images of past yrs have edged into my mind more frequentli esp this yr. Those many daes of youth in our uniforms that we so often take for granted are just drifting further n further away from the present. Sounds kinda scary huh?

Some days ago, when I suddenli realised I lost memory of a particular song that rgs used to sing, I went to dig out this ten-yr old Rafflesian song book (dated 1996) that has already collected a thin veil of dust on it. Looking at all those writings, all those songs, with all the typical rgs drawings makes me feel old. Hey it was nearli 10 yrs ago I received this booklet after PSLE n den holding it in my hand sitting in that hall after a month. Getting used to e all-unfamiliar surroundings, atmosphere and the 'cheering low n loud' (that really beats my mind for a while) hahaha. Glad that my memory din fail mi completeli, I still know how to sing most of the songs in there that still feels as meaningful as I first learnt it *big smile* shall take a pic of that booklet n post it here another dae. Just miss all those times, from those superficial gossip sessions n bitchin abt pple to the deep conversations abt guys n people n life. What else? The many food n places we explored, running after each other like mad people just to drench each other with chilli or water, taking stupid videos n fotos, silly n flopped attempts to dress up that created all those laughter, sleepin on e uncomfy breakwaters overnite tt leads to muscle aches, playin truant, watchin n imitating those star in mvs lol, moments in the squash courts to moments at the piano, the hugs n tears shed together.........many many others. these images jus formed so mani chapters of my life that I cant remember when my first chapter begins.

What am I expecting going forward? No idea at all because I am sure the future holds only the unexpected. When I tot I could foresee my next 5 yrs with certainty just a while ago, who knows that everything in my life suddenly break away from that? Even I din expect myself to be back at square one where I was couple of yrs back. In that state of taking steps one at a time, with silent anticipation. A decade or just 5 yrs ago I wouldnt foresee myself in the state I am now in too. That is how scary n mabe exciting life can be eh. At least for the first quarter or third of my life?