Happened to be browsing my fren's blog and certain things she wrote jus remind mi of the good old days we had in JC and in sec sch. Those times of innocence, fun, freedom with the bits and pieces of bitter whining, painful relationships n those hugs that give mi so much consolation and assurance. Cant believe that we are all in our final yr of undergrad studies when it seems like yesterday that we are taking Os or As..

Saw her entry on first love which I believe really describes what many experience because what she had exprienced herself actually describes exactly how I have felt before too. She ended with"what about you?" and well, this is how i feel. Shall take parts of what she said (coz I feel the same way) and add some lines to it:

Some say that one can never forget his or her first love,
How true is this? Why is this so?
Just because it is the first time we are experiencing it?
Or is it because it is the most intense that we have ever felt?
Does it mean we will not feel that way ever again,
Or do we refuse to believe that we can actually feel that way again?

Feeling of first love,
Is sth that cant be put into jus words.
The first time you totally go insane over someone,
Heartbeat racing so fast that you can feel that its gona explode,
A terrible longing to see someone,
Closing your eyes imagining you can hear him/her breathe beside you,
And even if its a second glimpse,
you'll feel that sacrificing everything is worth it.
Seeing that person makes you feel over the rainbow,
Makes your head spins,
Makes you feel lost for words,
Makes you feel that you have melted.
The crazy first times that you will actually stare at your hp for hours
Waiting for just that message,
And when it beeps, you jumps and wishes for that special name to appear.
A phone call can make you smile a way you never did
And you just cant stop smiling
You run around the whole island just to buy his/her fav item
Perhaps just to keep in your drawer for years to come.
You fall in love with the things he/she likes
And the way you behave, you talk, even your likings
Are influenced by him.
For the first time you really wish time can freeze
When you used to think thats just sth said in e stories or movies.

You have never felt so complete,
N u didnt know the meaning of complete before he/she came into your life
And you never knew you could feel this way
Before you met him/her.

Even years later,
You can still jump at that special name,
At that number of his
Feel emotional when you hear a particular song
Feel nostalgic when you flip the photos or read your diaries or look at the gifts
You would still like to hear news of him/her
Who he/she is hanging around
Feeling a little jealous or bitter of the person beside him/her
You may dream of that person still
Waking up feeling empty and missing him/her
You feel happy knowing that he/she is happy.

For those whose other halves are the first loves
They are lucky and perhaps they are meant to be
Though you may hear them complain
Is that really called love, since Ive only jus that one relationship tt whole life
Could I be missing out sth even more intense?

While those who lost their first loves
Wish that these 'first loves' have appeared in their lives much later
So that they would be the last and the one
Spending the rest of their lives with you.
Despite the pain, agony, misery the loss of first love may cause
It will just be embedded in your heart, in your body forever

And I wonder
Does that mean no one else could make you fall in love that way again
Or could there be another way of being in love
With a different kind of intensity and special feeling
That makes you want to sink into something, someone, somehow..

Well.. to those who are in love, cherish the feeling of being in love, falling in love, and being loved by someone you love. It is something difficult to come by, so remember every second of it, and you will not regret. I did not regret =)