Been reali overwhelmed with lotsa thoughts these couple of wks until my mind is complaining of fatigue.. Decided to let things go their way and free myself from everything. Including letting go of a relationship that has hung on for three n a half yrs. Not easy to come to this mindset n decision, went through lotsa mind battles.. not only once or twice but almost infinite times during these few yrs. I feel like an idiot sometimes and nw i feel like im a bastard. Shudnt I just follow what I felt there and then instead of trotting on like a threefooted horse sometimes.. I feel so sorry and guilty for being indecisive.. Really. nw, wats e best way to brk the news?

I really do not know if that is the best thing to do for both parties but I guess any decision is a gamble. Well, many tings in life are gambles anyway right? Its always "U never know"... u sometimes will never know whether sth will cause regret till u look bac some time later.. Now i gota adjust to a brand new life and shall not freeze and lock myself in that jaded mindset anymore.. But of coz whether I can reali achieve it is another reality altogether.. feels kinda weird.. after all i haf been living a different kinda lifestyle for these yrs in uni.. adaptation is a new word in my life now.. hopefulli someone right will come n pick mi up somedae *forced a smile* but the ironic fact is that deep inside mi im afraid to have anione getting close to mi coz im so so so afraid of getting hurt.

Is it time to start at least my first piece of work now since ive not been doin aniting for the last 2 wks since sch has started.. i was never so slack before.. i nid the power of concentration now.. n i guess need some mental/emotional support.

n oh yah went to c doc abt my fall n guess wat, he said that my hand will be scarred!!!! it jus made my day worst. and when i was at the hp shop jus now that salesguy was staring at my hand as though its some gruesome sight hes never seen in his life. ARGH. yes my beautiful hand is gone. =( the hand that even nearli got mi my bread n butter now is gone. (hand ads) can life suck more than this? i shall cool down n forget abt it for awhile huh.

aniwae to my fren who took the quote frm one of my previous posts " Men are like government bonds, they take so long to mature" *cheers!* thats oso my fav quote from that whole long list..

-looking forward to having sth to look forward to soon-