argh was tryin to listen to my philo webcast.. but kinda hard to focus.. mabe i jus dun have enough interest in it.. my hand n leg still hurt... from e stupid big fall i had on fri.. ugly patches on the back of my hand.. once it touches water, skin ard will swell n turn red n i cant move my joints.. n this pain is especialli so when im bathing.. so much difficulty washin my hair! reali hate it... but i guess i have high pain tolerance.. so jus bite my teeth more twice a dae in e bathrm.. wonder when it will recover though.. everitime im in pain, i jus tell myself 'this is not the worst pain, so be glad'. sounds stupid but helps mi a little. n i jus wonder abt labour pain.. it must be much worst right? *shudders*

kinda boring sunday.. ydae has not too boring a dae though.. k lunch with my jp frens den project meeting.. den mahjong session with my frens.. e dinner is like the best part of the day.. coz i ate my fav oyster omelette, tt particular stall's noodles and bbq chicken wings at 85.. hehe.. luking forward to stingray there next haha.

well.. ydae mornin i was reali upset actuali.. seeing n hearing some tings.. since nw we are in a either a real break up or pre brk up stage.. i shall give myself the space that i wanted.. n time tt i wanted to do wat i want.. too bad theres school work otherwise i would spend my sunday afternoon off at borders or kino now.. and have a night of wine. recentli kinda unstable emotional state which i dislike.. sometimes i duno if im reali happy. i tink i got to slowly adjust to this stage.. and hopefully i can think through things in a proper manner.

went to ai qing hai that dae. fri nite. it was wonderful night. love the second batch of singers. i think they are good.. and their duets are reali great! she said at one pt that its reali hard to find a singer to match you in a duet niceli n shes happi to find him to be able to be so matching.. tt was wat occured to mi too before she even said it.. i reali tink its a joy to have pple so matchin to sing duets with you.. and also to have frens doing those music stuff together with similar passion. its reeali a great feeling when pple outside dun reali noe wat u r doin n y u r so overjoyed when u all achieve some small ting. so i kinda missed my ge chuang in rj.

well jus thinkin abt sth abt passion.. sometimes you cant jus do things that u have passion for in ur life.. simple tings boil down to career.. so is that why its called life or is that why that is not called 'living' your life? well.. depends on perspectives i guess. there must be a reason we chose to do wat we are doing, so that reasoning must have come out from some debate in the mind that has the postive n negative sides.. so there is a tradeoff.. no matter what you choose to do in the end.. jus that often we would complain abt those 'negative' pts when we start doin wat we chose.. mabe the same ting could be applied to relationships? depends on what you c that is more impt tt led u to choose tt someone. u gota live with the gd n bad sides of him. but sometimes priority is one thing, impacts are another. though u may prioritize certain aspects to be more impt the other aspects may in actual fact have a greater impact on ur general happiness.

i read a bk.. it says that someone once said that a person is made n then split into 2 persons.. n hence they are looking for their other 'halves'.. mabe that s why ur other half sometimes may seem that he or she jus cant click with you? coz he or she is the other part of u which is separated frm ur own half body. but somehow sth must link n complement the 2 halves.. ermz.. i sound like im talkin a little bit in a non sensical way huh. well never mind.. saw sherry argov's new bk in kino luks like a gd bk for women =)